change is hard

why is change so hard sometimes? i am not even talking about crazy big life changing experiences.

 having a baby?
getting married (ok i never actually bothered to get married)?
moving?

the above all are easy peasy compared to say slightly changing your everyday routine.

today i went out for a bike ride before work. i rode (walked up the hill) with h to school and then off i went. last night i preplanned my route. i decided i was going to try something new. i usually do an out and back route for a few reasons; easy to calculate time/distance, flat farm road with little to no traffic, and it is predictable. the only time i usually deviate from this route is when i need to find a hill cause we have no hills close to where i live so my 'hill' is going over a bridge. ok, back on track. so i started out, same route i normally do, when i get to the point where i normally would turn around but i am 'planning' on continuing i start to feel physically ill, nervous, panic, resisting the urge to just turn around... i actually physically stop, get off my bike, 'stretch' for a moment before i suck it up and continue on my way. yes there is more traffic the way i continued but there is bike lanes and the roads are still flat farm roads. i survived, i didn't die, i got home and still got to work on time.

oh yeah, i wore gloves this morning. the weather is dry and clear but it was about 10c while i was riding. when i got home i took a hot long shower. i haven't had to do that since i stopped running and the weather has warmed. fall is officially here.

side note on running: i have run (intervals) on the treadmill a couple of times. i am guessing as the weather gets yucky i will probably start running a bit on the treadmill. it would be silly for me not to since i have a treadmill at home which i pass by every time i go up and down the stairs. i am not planning on counting any running miles or doing any races soon. running for now is just a cardio means to an end.

i am still tracking. my bunz who followed me to myfitnesspal are super motivating. i am eating within range most days. still have not seen a real 'weight loss' yet. sigh. going to keep plugging along. this week i will be working out 5 days in a row. i will likely take saturday/sunday off. next week may be a bit different as some days i will be starting at 930am so i can't really workout before work. i guess i could but getting up before 7am is just ridiculous.

Seriously ridiculous.     

i made a yummy quesadilla for dinner tonight at work. so yummy. i forgot to take a picture before i ate it. it wasn't complicated at all: flour tortilla, marble cheddar cheese, orange bell peppers, 1 chicken thigh and mrs dash chipolte something seasoning. really yummy though. trust me. yummy.