So bad but SO good

So this is what i am making for dinner. Oh my gawd it is good.  I have been sneaking mouthfuls of it all day and it was yummy BEFORE i put an entire pack of cream cheese in. Next time i will use half a pack or none. I added bacon. Of course i added bacon.

So yummy.  Pinterest link below.

Source: laurabrowe.blogspot.com via Jen on Pinterest

How you doing? (say it like joey, come on i know you want to)

so how am i doing? i am doing well. adapting to working full time still and trying to squeeze life in. we seem to be doing ok. mondays and tuesdays i am now working a couple of hours earlier so that means i can be home for dinner 2/5 week nights a week and home before he goes to be every night. that is definitely a huge bonus. i am enjoying being a supervisor but i would not want to do my normal job full time. i think i would go nuts or nutser? right now i am supervising until the end of november and then we will see where life takes me. wow, that was very chill for me. ommmmmm.

besides that i have not been exercising a ton and when i do it isn't really intense. i did strength train twice this week and i hadn't done that a while. i also did not ride my bike this week but i do not care to discuss that right now. i am walking and doing the elliptical mostly. i am not burning a crazy amount of calories or working out nearly as intensely as i used to. you know what i have noticed? i am not having huge hunger cravings nor junk cravings. i am able to stay in my range of 1200 net calories most days. when i used to exercise the way i did i would think about food all the time. ALL the time. now i do believe part of this is because i am working all day for 5 days and i am not home alone and somewhat bored so turn to food.

nothing else really exciting going on. trying to figure out our vegas trip. s keeps flopping back and forth if he is coming or not. then he was going to go with a friend for the same weekend but not stay with me? weird? i refuse to sleep in a room with another strange man cause i have never even met this dude. i would like him to come with me and when i am spending time with my girls he can spend the time with his guys but i would like to come home to him at some point. oh, vegas is dumb expensive on the weekend. seriously. 2 nights is going to cost us what 4 weekday ones usually cost us.

we are also looking at a trip south in February. likely cancun or mayan riviera. however, i found a package to panama that looked pretty cool and was on sale. only issue flight to panama is almost 8 hours compared to 5.5-6 to cancun. i haven't been to either but panama obviously feels more foreign. not sure if it matters if we mainly stay on the resort anywhoo.

below i put another picture from Kauai which i stole from s's facebook page. it was taken at a place called Queens Bath. very pretty. pictures never do places justice.

tata for now! gotta go finish cleaning my oven. i am using a way i found on pinterest.

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change is hard

why is change so hard sometimes? i am not even talking about crazy big life changing experiences.

 having a baby?
getting married (ok i never actually bothered to get married)?
moving?

the above all are easy peasy compared to say slightly changing your everyday routine.

today i went out for a bike ride before work. i rode (walked up the hill) with h to school and then off i went. last night i preplanned my route. i decided i was going to try something new. i usually do an out and back route for a few reasons; easy to calculate time/distance, flat farm road with little to no traffic, and it is predictable. the only time i usually deviate from this route is when i need to find a hill cause we have no hills close to where i live so my 'hill' is going over a bridge. ok, back on track. so i started out, same route i normally do, when i get to the point where i normally would turn around but i am 'planning' on continuing i start to feel physically ill, nervous, panic, resisting the urge to just turn around... i actually physically stop, get off my bike, 'stretch' for a moment before i suck it up and continue on my way. yes there is more traffic the way i continued but there is bike lanes and the roads are still flat farm roads. i survived, i didn't die, i got home and still got to work on time.

oh yeah, i wore gloves this morning. the weather is dry and clear but it was about 10c while i was riding. when i got home i took a hot long shower. i haven't had to do that since i stopped running and the weather has warmed. fall is officially here.

side note on running: i have run (intervals) on the treadmill a couple of times. i am guessing as the weather gets yucky i will probably start running a bit on the treadmill. it would be silly for me not to since i have a treadmill at home which i pass by every time i go up and down the stairs. i am not planning on counting any running miles or doing any races soon. running for now is just a cardio means to an end.

i am still tracking. my bunz who followed me to myfitnesspal are super motivating. i am eating within range most days. still have not seen a real 'weight loss' yet. sigh. going to keep plugging along. this week i will be working out 5 days in a row. i will likely take saturday/sunday off. next week may be a bit different as some days i will be starting at 930am so i can't really workout before work. i guess i could but getting up before 7am is just ridiculous.

Seriously ridiculous.     

i made a yummy quesadilla for dinner tonight at work. so yummy. i forgot to take a picture before i ate it. it wasn't complicated at all: flour tortilla, marble cheddar cheese, orange bell peppers, 1 chicken thigh and mrs dash chipolte something seasoning. really yummy though. trust me. yummy.

I know, I know

I know I haven't blog in a while. Kauai was wonderful. It depresses me cause I am not there. I would move there in an instant. I don't want to tell you too much cause I don't want to let the world know how great and wonderful it is. I do not want it to change and end up like Waikiki or even Maui. It is mine. All mine. Bwahahahahaha

I am also waiting for my parents to return from Hawaii because they have a bunch of pictures I would like to include.

I am writing this from a massage chair while getting a pedicure. Whoa it is bouncy. I am going black with sparkles.

My work/union was on a one day strike. I walked for 4 hours this morning. I was exhausted after. I had planned on a long bike ride but I ended up just doing 4 miles with the dog trailing behind me.

Been tracking food. Exercising consistently and I am gaining weight. Seriously annoying. Not going to give up.

I see Miss Amee has blogged. I need to go read that.

Laters

Aloha!

Tomorrow we leave for Kauai around dinner time. I am so excited to get away. I love being on vacation. I work FOR vacation. I love to travel. LOVE it. ok, i actually don't like the transportation part of travelling. I find airports stressful. The stress though is so worth it.

I just looked at some pictures on facebook from our last trip to this exact same place. It was in 2008. What is different this time? First S actually is coming and he is excited. He resisted Hawaii for so long. Seriously what is wrong with you to resist going to Hawaii? Last time I said screw it and went without him but with the rest of my family. I was skinny last time I was in Hawaii. Really skinny. I am going now with 20lbs extra. I would be happy with just 10lbs extra. H was also 2 last time we went. He was so cute and tiny. After getting knocked by a wave in the ocean on the first day he refused to step into the ocean again. This time he has asked for surf lessons! What a difference! Here is an old picture of him from then. Isn't he just cute? Yes I know I am a bit bias.



H August 2008

 So I have been working out and working hard. I have been tracking. I have lost 1lbs. Progress. I am going to continue on tracking when we get home. I am committed to getting my weight back into the 140's asap. I went for a nice bike ride last night. 16km. I have been doing at least one ride a week since I stopped running. i have tracked 10 (TEN) days in a row.  I am going to get up at 530am (it hurts to type that) tomorrow for a spin class before we head on our trip in the afternoon. I have also lured 2 of my bunz from Sparkpeople to track on MyFitnessPal. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!

We spend our first night in Honolulu and then will be on Kauai from Friday to Friday. This time on Saturday hopefully this is where I will be.



Lawai Beach Resort Bayan Pool

 Aloha!!

track that

i am a tracking machine. i have tracked now 10 days in a row. a spark friend of mine announced she has motivation lately and she should take advantage of it. i was like, whoa, i do too so i need to run with this too. run figuratively not literally. thanks patty for making me aware of this too.

i have not run yet. we are still broken up. i have done 1 minute sprints on the treadmill for Making the Cut a few times but no more than 90 seconds at a time. Not really running. I need a "running sucks" shirt from like the one S got from Nike.

besides that nothing too exciting to report except 6 more days until Hawaii!!!  We have booked a tube ride through this company http://www.kauaibackcountry.com/tubing.html and we may do some surf lessons. unsure. i have no yearning to surf but S, H and my dad do so who knows?

nothing really going on this weekend. H has hockey tomorrow and we may go see my sister on sunday and do our annual hike to Quarry Rock.

long weekend

this weekend was the bc day long weekend. oh my it was hot. like unusually hot. like mid 30's people which RARELY ever happens around these parts. so humid and gross. our house is 30c upstairs. thankfully we have the portable ac in our bedroom but the rest of the house and even downstairs is like 28c. gross. there is no escape. actually there was an escape. h and i spent like an hour in walmart to just get out of the heat. $100+ later, that was expensive!!  

on saturday morning we went to the mall. disney xd was in town for free skateboard lessons. h told me about it late so there was no room so we went early and got on through the waitlist. he was so excited. they taught him all the correct lingo so now i don't understand him sometimes. there is a pic of him from the event. he is not little anymore and needs to stop growing asap. the attitude coming off the kid lately too is unreal. i know he is testing but seriously he has had me on the verge of crazy a few times.  however, the big baby (aka husband) is driving me more crazy.


Beyond that i have been doing mtc. i am sore which is great. i have been tracking, which is great. i had 2 bad days when i went over my calorie allowance. nothing crazy though at about 1800 cals. besides that i have been below 1500 calories since last wednesday. have i lost weight? nope. i wasn't even going to weigh myself but i got the dang scale out and wish i didn't. i have been doing mtc at home with no ac, pls note the temps above. on saturday morning i did my workout, showered and then we headed to a birthday party which i continued tho pour sweat for at least another hour. today i am going to go for a ride while h is at ball hockey. he has hockey school 1x per day this week and then next week he has skateboard camp for 4 days then we are off to HAWAII!